Confessions of a teenage drama queen...

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 22:24:52 GMT

I'M HOME!! :)

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 17:10:32 GMT

So my wonderful time in edmonton just went horribly wrong.

Steve(the guy i was seeing here) and I "broke up" a few days ago.

The next morning I proceeded to puke (the first time in like 5 years) because I drank too much on Saturday.

Then Monday came. I managed to sprain my ankle (3rd degree, high ankle sprain... aka the worst kind everrr) so I'm not 100% sure but I'm like 95% sure I will not be playing this season. I whole reason I came out here was to play, and now I cant. Needless to say, I'm a little upset. I better get back to my bed. I haven't cried in a whole hour.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 17:07:30 GMT

I officially love Alberta.

We got the weekend off (kinda.. we still need to do some fitness stuff) so yesterday the team went out for dinner and then to O'Byrne's which is a pub kinda place down on Whyte. I used Bunny's ID and it worked. Then we went back to the house and got ready and went to Bar Wild... where Bunny's ID worked again :D so we joined the football team and their rookie party. It was soooo much fun. I had at least 1 drink in my hands the whole night and the field hockey girls got everyone dancing and I don't remember much but I know I had fun. Everyone, you must come visit me in Alberta. I guarantee you a gooooood time.

That is all for now.

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 23:15:16 GMT

so i'm in edmonton. and i never want to leave. i've been here for 5 hours and i all ready love it. yaaaay for leaving!!!

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 22:41:51 GMT

Sooo I haven't updated in about a century. All I have to say is I don't think I'm ready for this real world shit. I leave in 6 days.. and I'm pretty much freaking out. Thank god I can talk to my mom all I want on the phone. It'll probably be another century before I update again sooo wish me luck.. I'm gonna need it.

Grad Ceremony...

Tue, 30 May 2006 03:15:19 GMT

whats everyone wearing to the ceremony on wednesday?

i heard some people say it's semi-formal... and then others say its not.. so i'm kinda lost!

Wed, 03 May 2006 05:02:00 GMT

these next few weeks=love.

Today I hung out with Robin, Lee, Gareth and Justin and we went to the beach.. picture post to come. SO much fun.

Tomorrow I'm going to the turf... the U18 guys have a practice and Carly and I are going to see Jordan, Derrick, Mark and the rest of the boys.

Friday I'm hanging out with the crew.

Saturday, practice in Duncan, then hanging out at Mark's and staying at Mir's.

Sunday I'm coming home from Duncan and heading out to the ARMCHAIR CYNICS CONCERRTTT! My brother and I got free tickets cause my Dad golf's with the owner of Legends or something.. I'm SO EFFING EXCITED!

Next weekend.. U18 Regional tourny in Duncan! I expect to see you all out there watching.

May Long weekend - I'm actually playing in the VIT for Cara's team.. should be good. Get to see Will, Thomas, Cody, Tse, possibly Waldo etc.. YAY!

But ya, life is getting better. School is still a bitch but I've found a solid group of friends that really care about me. Grad is still a little iffy, but life is definately getting better. I'm ridiculously happy right now.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 02:45:40 GMT

this entry is pretty much gonna consist of me bitching and complaining. i'm not looking for sympathy or anything, i really just need to get this all out.

i am so ridiculously stressed out right now. i probably shouldn't be this stressed, but i've never one to deal with any level of stress well. i just have so much shit going on right now and i want it all to end.

i'm still sick, and getting worse. its getting to the point where i can barely breathe on my own and i dont know what to do. im so rundown all the time and no matter how much sleep i get, im constantly exhausted. this is making field hockey very difficult and the whole fitness program we're supposed to be doing even harder. i am now considering absolutely sucking at the regionals tournament in may because i dont know if i want to make a provincial team this year. my weight keeps fluctuating too. ive been losing weight like mad and my eating habits are right fucked. school bites. i cant concentrate cause im so tired and all the work keeps piling up. my stupid chem exam is on friday that im gonna fail, i started studying about an hour ago for it and i realized i know nothing. literally nothing. history paper = death. english = death. i cant wait to be done. another reason im not sleeping is cause im confused.. justin and i broke up the other day and i really truly thought it was for the best, but as much as that stupid boy drives me sssooo insane i miss him.. a lot. so now i dont know what to do. oh and my grandma is slowly deteriorating, she doesnt have much longer to live and im super close to her and all my grandparents (who are all alive, by the way) im finding it harder and harder to spend time with her cause she's totally lost it and makes no sense and its really hard for me to just sit there and pretend like everythings ok. oh and has anyone ever noticed how much people suck? sometimes i think i'd be better off with no friends at all. im really considering not going to grad.. it's going to be way too depressing for me. i'd rather sit at home in my pretty dress and watch one tree hill or something.

anyhow, thats all i can think of to whine about for now. i best be getting back to the lovely wallis warfield simpson and her lovely life.

I think it's high time you find diamonds in this coalmine called me

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 20:24:13 GMT

Life is oh so good right now.

However, life is not so good that I don't want to leave. I'm still getting out of here.. YAY!

Here's a few pictures that sum up my life in the past month.

My coach's baby and I in the Calgary airport after Nationals. Please ignore the fact that I look like shit.. I'd been in the hospital most of the day.

A couple of weeks ago Carly, Pilar and I hung out and watched some movies...

Pilar and I... looking sssssooooooo cool. I'll post more pictures later, I haven't gotten them all from Carly yet.

And there's life in a nutshell. I just hang out with the crew and play field hockey... but I love my new friends. They're so much fun. I spent all Spring Break with them... even got myself a new boyfriend out of the deal, not too shabby.

I'll leave you with a pic of me from October at my birthday....

I miss my hair that colour SSOO much!! But I also like me blonde... just not this inbetween random colour thing I got going on right now. What do you all think... do I go back to blonde or go dark for grad??

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 19:04:55 GMT

hey everyone. its time for yet another boring, half-assed update..

not much is new. spring break is nice, but it just kinda feels like another random week off school, not really spring break. surprisingly enough, i'm doing things and hanging out with people. i made some cool new friends from vic high at jordan's surprise party and downtown etc. so im hanging out with them, car and PR all spring break, its pretty exciting. i also found a new boy toy, which is always fun and exciting. its about time... i needed a distraction from duncan boy and derrick. oh yes and i went on a kick ass shopping trip with torie yesterday. twas fun, except for the whole payless fiasco. dont ask.

sooo my mother is mad at me for leaving her... she gets mad at me for the stupidest little things and finds any excuse to be pissed off at me all the time. im trying not to spend any time in the house, but shes still managing to find things to get mad about. whatever. 5 months and i'm outta here. I CANT WAIIIITTT!!!!!!!! i'm soooooooooooooooo frickin excited :D

i must be off.. breakfast awaits. ciao for nowwww

I'm leaving on a jet plane.....

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 05:51:52 GMT

not much to say... I decided I'm going to the University of Alberta next year yaaayyyy. I need to get the fuck out of here. Waking up to the same faces everyday for 17 years is so damn boring, I just need a change of scenery. It's been fun... but I CANT WAIT!!!!!!! to get out. Only 6 more hellish months to go...

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 19:21:41 GMT

calgary was good. kind of. we came in 4th. and i wouldnt usually say this but we got completely fucked over by the umpires but meh whatcha gonna do.

i ended up spending most of sunday in the hospital in calgary after almost collapsing twice during the weekend. turns out i'm way more fucked up than i thought i was. i have to get more blood work done here in victoria to find out what the underlying problem is, because apparently it is quite clear that there is one. my coach had a big long talk with me.. she says that i'm a very high energy person and i put a lot of effort and energy into everything i do, which is probably bringing me down. she says i focus too much on other people and try to help them too much, when really i need to be helping myself first. so i'm supposed to take some "me" time and get myself better.. which is kind of hard when i dont know whats wrong.

i have no fucking clue what to do next year. uvic, u of a and now i'm even considering u of c. no idea. when i got home yesterday all my mom said was "you better get a hold of this problem laura, because universities don't like high maintenance athletes." i really wanted to tell her to go fuck herself. i'm considering not playing in university next year. i'm at the point where i really dont give a fucking shit about field hockey anymore.

this new semester should be absolute hell. woohoo

why cant this year just fucking be over all ready?

it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 22:52:22 GMT

life's a bitch. sometimes i just want to tell people to eat shit and die.

on a lighter note.. i'm going to CALGARY today for indoor nationals! i'm sooo flippin excited. it'll be nice to get away from everything, even if it is just for a few days. anywho, catch ya on the flipside

-laur

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 01:54:28 GMT

I never realized what a hermit I am until today.

Here's my routine:
- go to school
- go for a run
- do my homework
- in bed by 10

Sometimes I really live it up and do my homework before my run. Wow. I'm such a rebel. The sad part is, I dont really have a problem with being a hermit. I only have 1 maybe 2 true friends so its not like I have a bunch of friends to be spending time with. All I do is study and play field hockey. Speaking of which, I must get back to studying.

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 00:02:32 GMT

what's everyone wearing to the potluck tonight?!?

i feel as if i'm going to be very over dressed......

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 01:17:27 GMT

boys are so dumb! :( :( :(

i just broke up with derrick for reasons i dont feel comfortable saying on here...

and he didnt even fucking care.

correction, boys are not dumb. they are jerks.

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 04:47:48 GMT

hey kids. so i don't really have anything to update about.. but i'll tell you about my boring life anyways..

before christmas i didnt really do much.. i hung out with my aunt and went to the gym. yes, laura fairbairn went to the gym. its a phenomenon really. a miracle if you will. so yes, i am getting my sorry ass in shape for my FIRST GAME BACK!! January 4th babyyy!! im so excited, i can barely contain myself.

christmas itself wasnt all too eventful... woke up at the crack of dawn (my little brother made me) and opened up my presents with the family. then more family came over for coffee, so i had to be all friendly and shit. i then had to kill like 5 hours before dinner, so i slept. i never realized how boring christmas is when you get older. when you're younger, you can just play with your toys all day, but now we dont really have much to do except play with our new ipods or whatever. so ya, then i headed off to dinner with the other side of the family which was actually rather eventful now that i think about it. my mother, aunt and uncle (who are not married.. from different sides of the family) decided to get really really drunk.. and it was really really funny. my aunt kept telling me how i was her favourite neice or nephew (i think she had trouble deciding if i was a neice or nephew), my uncle didnt say anything at all really, except about how he makes more money than everyone else and how hes still single, and my mom decided that she had a special bond with me, and she was very excited about this bond. she kept saying "laura we have a bond! a mother daughter bond!" i just had to nod and smile and say "all right mom.. ok.. lets not fall in the chip dip, all right. no mom, put the drink down you dont need another one" yes. now that i look back it was a rather eventful night indeed.

for christmas i got a few things: some money from various relatives, canucks vs. leafs tickets from my daddy(clearly the best present), AE jeans, a few zippy's, some more shoes, a jacket, a $50 gift certificate for some salon/spa from my grandpas financial advisor(someone i've never met.. thank you tom, whoever you are) annddd some pj's and bath stuff from la senza. twas a good christmas.

boxing day shopping was MAD!! i only lasted like 2 hours, and i only got one pair of pants. i couldnt handle the busy-ness, or the seeing of people i didn't want to see. ugh. sometimes people really suck, but whatcha gonna do.

yesterday derrick came back. yaaay. so i spent a massive 2 hours with him before he left again for somewhere.. i dont even know where. hes supposed to be back tomorrow but i dunno when and i dont wanna wait around for him and end up not going out on new years, cause that would really suck.. so i dunno what to do. but then again its not like i really have anywhere to go so meh. we shall see what happens. hope everyone had a great christmas and i hope you all have a kick ass new years!!

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 02:51:59 GMT

aaaahhhh. I'm finally HOME!!! It feels really good to be back.

So I've been in California for the past 2 and a half weeks. You'd think I'd have a super long entry about how wonderful my trip was, but I dont. It was all right. I was sick for most of it which sucked. And I missed everyone a lot. Namely Derrick because I knew I really wouldn't be seeing him till January. The one really good thing is that I bought my grad dress. I am revealing nothing except that it is really really pretty. Oh, and I bought like six pairs of shoes, which is also wonderful.

It is now winter break, and a boring break it will be. Almost all my friends are leaving me. Oh well. I guess I'll have tons of time to do the work I missed when I was gone. Yesterday I hung out with Derrick all day and I gave him his present - a Lacoste shirt, you know the ones with the little crocodiles, which cost me a pretty penny, but he really really wanted it so I decided to be a good girlfriend for once and get him it. And now he's gone, so I'm alone. I always found it really hard to be alone over the holidays... but its only another couple of weeks. Does anyone know what they're doing for New Years? I know it seems like a long time away, but it always seems to creep up on me right after Christmas. Let me know. Ciao for now!

Why...

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 03:43:05 GMT

Why do bad things always happen to good people? It isn't fair. But, then again, I guess life isn't fair. Oh well. The bitches and assholes always win. I guess we all have to suck it up

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 04:46:42 GMT

Life is good. I might even go as far as saying life is great. I love it when everything seems to just fall in place perfectly.

This past weekend was super good and very relaxing, which is exactly what I needed. Thursday night Derrick came over, Friday night I went to Derrick's and Saturday night he came over again. I love it. I've all ready turned him into such a homebody cause I'm a loser and never go out anymore. Other than that I spent my weekend doing homework and catching up, which is also something I had to do.

I don't know what to do with myself on weekdays anymore - I'm so used to reluctantly going off to practice everyday and now that I can actually go home and make good use of my time, I don't want to. So I don't. It's wonderful. Yesterday was a phenomenal day in general. Derrick came over after school and we watched Toy Story. Man oh man do I love Disney movies. My little brother had a friend over and when he found out that Derrick was not my older brother he said "OOHHH its her BOYFRIEND!! Like not just a boy thats a friend but a BOYFRIEND!!! She's in loooooove with him!!!!".... what the hell do you say to a 6 year old kid who says that?? I didn't know what to say because I'd either say something inappropriate in front of the kindergarten's or I would offend Derrick.. so I just sat there and laughed awkwardly while my mother pissed herself laughing behind me. What a nice family I have. After Derrick left I went to Swan's downtown with the boys. It was a good time.

I went to the doctor today and he said I don't have to wear my big ugly splint all the time which is great! And chances are I wont need surgery unless I keep playing and break it more. I'm out till January still, but he said it's looking really good and that I should be just fine. So I get to drive up to flippin' Duncan this weekend and give them my note and watch them train for 3 hours. Whoopdeedoo. I can hardly contain my excitement. Now I'm off to get warm. I just went and watched Derrick's game in the frickin freezing cold and he didnt even score, but I got to give Alan his stick back. I'm gonna miss my baby.. anywho I hope everyone has a great weekend! I hope all you people who are not having such a good time right now feel better - things pretty much can't get any worse so they can only get better right? Ciao for now!

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 21:22:55 GMT

Provincials were this past week. We came in 8th.. the worst of the best woot woot. It wasnt that bad I guess, considering we didnt even make it to provincials the year before. I just wanted to do much better in my last year. I also wanted to play my best but that didn't exactly happen due to the large crack down my finger/hand but meh, whatcha gonna do. I can't really dwell on it, I have other shit to focus on.

I'm really looking forward to doing a lot of sleeping this weekend.. I'm sooo physically and mentally drained. I have to get ahead in school because I go to California for 2 weeks in December. December is gonna suck. I go away from Dec 1-17 and Derrick goes to the Dominican Republic from Dec 19-29 then to some Mt Washington cabin or something from the 29-31. Boo. So I'll get to see him for a whole day! Wahoo! This bites. Spending quality time with him right now isn't exactly working out so hot considering I fall asleep on him everytime we hang out cause I'm so tired. Oooohhhh well. Things are going really really well with him. I wish I was this happy all the time :) I love it.

Back to the homework.. I'll update better next time.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 05:54:06 GMT

Despite the fact that my finger is very fractured and I'm out for at least 2 months I am very happy... like very very happy. Oh the joys of boys. And rhyming.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 04:48:53 GMT

K so I'm dumb. On Wednesday afternoon we played Vic High in our first game of Islands. I didn't really see what happened, but I decided it would be a great idea to hop in front of one of Robyn's hits. Turns out that wasn't such a hot idea. I may have broken my hand/finger/I have no idea whats going on, my hand it just very swollen and black and blue. So I got x-rays... just waiting for the results now.

Thursday I didnt get to practice because my hand was so swollen I couldn't get it around a stick. It was fucking lame.

Friday was the first real day of Islands. We loaded up the cheesebox to go up island ie. we took a school bus and Mugsy drove it. We won 2-0 against Vanier and 4-0 against Frances Kelsey. I decided to play because I needed to get into BC's because I want the UofA coach to come see me play. So I got a few goals, including one that Mugsy called "Naslund to Bertuzzi." Carly drove baseline and slid it straight back to me and I one time sweeped it in. Beauty. Friday night Carly and I did dinner and a movie. How cute.

Saturday we played Cowichan first. Surprisngly, we were tied 2-2 at the half. It was a damn good half. Down 2-0 pretty quick, but we got 2 short corners and scored on both. Yet another Carly to Laura to Kelsey goal yesssss. AThen we played Claremont and won 3-0. That was a tragic game on my part. I couldnt do ANYTHING cause of my god damned hand. I think Simon figured out that I could neither pull right nor hit so he had his players overcommit on the left pull and stuff me every time. Fuckers. So we ended up 3rd on the Island with Cowichan and Vic High first and second respectively. BC's are Nov. 9-11 HERE so I expect to see those of you who are not playing out there supporting us. Anywho, after I got home Pilar came over to watch Zoolander cause she had never seen it and I was tired so I went to bed.

Today I went to Vancouver to see Will, Jordan and Jordan from Calgary cause they were at the Jr. Nat camp. I watched Will, Jordan Tse and Derrick play in the fucking freezing cold and pouring rain for an hour, but at least Stokes and Chris were keeping me company. Mark chose to ignore me and only say bye to me when he was running away. His excuse was he thought I would be on the ferry. Right. I would go to Vancouver for a whole hour and a half and then head straight home.. that makes sense. When they were done me, the Jordans minus Stokes and Will went back to their hotel so they could shower then we went shopping at Oakridge. Will bought me a pair of Lulu's and a shirt for my birthday which was sooo awesome. So ya, we just hung out then I went home.

All in all a good few days, minus the pain which was completely my fault so I can't really complain. These xrays better be giving me some good news tomorrow... ciao for nowwwww

My slow descent into alcoholism..

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 18:26:15 GMT

Why is it that when you think things couldnt possibly get any worse, they always manage to do so? Also, why is it that people tell you "not to worry" about certain things, when clearly they are things you should be worried about. I don't understand how some people can have such a fucking optimistic view on life - "don't let stress get you down! you're just gonna dig yourself a deeper grave!".... pffftttt. ya. right. My grave is really effing deep by now.

Anywho, Sunday was meh. We won our Div 1 game 2-1. It was an all right game. Trump put me mid - the only position I really DONT play. So I complained and got my wish - I played center D all second half. I had some ok runs. Then I had to umpire Blackheath vs. Lynx 2. I was so incredibly intimidated considering the coaches were Simon and Trump. I knew Trump wouldn't say anything, but I also knew she'd be thinking "What a horrible umpire" and I thought Simon would be on my ass the whole game. Oh and Denise Hall was playing, so Pat Hall was watching... all this on my FIRST Div 2 game. I hadn't touched a whistle since about March. Talk about pressure. Lazy ref aka Safety Man was reffing with me. I might have seemed a little better just because he sucks so much. I got a ride home with Pilar and Simon was in the car. We had some interesting talks. And by talks I mean that Simon made fun of me. Somehow we got on the topic of planes, and Simon stated that he doesn't know how they let me on a plane and that I should be in with the baggage. We then talked about how I would be put in a kennel and fed once a flight by a flight attendant. Now there's an interesting mental picture. I finished off the day with some Rising Stars, except I couldn't do anything because I messed up my knee again. It was a "core training" session. It was too easy, and I all ready knew everything so going to watch was a complete waste of time.

Monday we were back at school. YAY! I was so happy to be back. I don't think I'm as screwed as I thought that was because we only missed 9 days of instruction - 1 of which I was going to miss anyhow for Bridgman so I had the work for that day. So only 8 days. My dumbass of a Chem teacher assured me that we would be all right, but I dont believe her so I'm working ahead. Quast says we'll be fine and I believe him because he's actually a good teacher. Monday was also our first practice back - I really should have ran or something over the break. Its amazing how you can suck at running again after less than 2 weeks off. Monday night was spent catching up, just like the next eleventy billion trillion days will be.

Tuesday isnt even worth going over.

Today I decided to come home for lunch and spare and part of chem - in my opinion food is more important than learning. Oh and by the way, I had the best Bio class ever today, Mr Quast acted out how a carrier protein works with a stapler. It was pretty much the funniest thing I've ever seen. So yes, now here I am, updating my live journal rather than going to school. I love how lazy I am. After school we have our first game of islands. We drew south 3 for standings, but Hawk (Vic High) decided we were a more suiting team to be 1st so we switched. When Alan told me that I almost said "why? Because we run a 2 man show rather than a 1 man show?" but I held back. Alan wouldn't like that attitude. So we play Vic High after school today, and our other 2 pool games on Friday. Should be an interesting game. After I'm staying to watch some U18 boys play against some British team. Devon, Mark, Derrick, Gabe etc. are all playing so it should be a good game to watch. And I have to see Marky-poo hahaha. Poor kid, has to deal with me. I best be getting back to school.. cio for now!

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 17:50:06 GMT

So my birthday pretty much kicked ass. I thought it was going to be tragic and lame, but it turned out ok. I woke up pretty early and Julian and I went for Tim Hortons and we talked for a couple hours. I got back around 10 and got ready for lunch with Nellanna. We went to Boston Pizza and had nachos and potato skins... it was soooo good. She got me a really nice white scarf, some little goodies from a bakery and a happy birthday tiara. I must admit the tiara is pretty damn cool. She also paid for my lunch. Soon after lunch the family started coming over to give me presents... my one set of grandparents gave me a ridiculous amount of money as usual, and the other set gave me a little money but not as much as the other thank god. I really don't need that much money. Then I had a bit of a breakdown.. Carly didn't make reservations for dinner, Derrick decided he couldn't go, Jordan was complaining about having no money. So I was very close to saying fuck it, no birthday dinner, but Carly assured me she would make a reservation and that Derrick was an asshole and that Jordan would indeed be there. So we went at 8:00 and I'm really glad we did. It was fun and really nice to see Simon and Robyn who I very rarely get to spend time with. And the Moxies people brought me a free white chocolate brownie.. soooo good. Carly, Jordan and Pilar got me a very creative present. They put a box full of stuff together called "Laura's Night Out Survival Kit." I was pretty impressed by it. They got me a condom, becuase "clearly I would need it" geez. What do they take me for?! The also got me a rape whistle, underwear in case I lost mine, breath mints to cover up the smell of alcohol, and a really cool American Eagle shirt that says "turn me on" with a picture of a radio on it that I really wanted awhile ago. Simon and Robyn got me the bestest present ever. They said they wanted to get me something that I would use... so they got me a bottle of Arbor Mist wine and pink grapefruit Bacardi Breezers. Pretty much the best present ever. It was really fun sneaking those into my house after haha. Carly and Pilar came back to my house for princess cake after. Yes, my dad got me a princess cake with all the Disney princess's. I thought it was very suiting. After those two crazy kids left I ended up on the phone all night. First I called Robin and we talked for awhile, then Derrick called me to apologize for not coming and said he'd make it up to me by taking me to see Elizabethtown which he really doesnt wanna see. Yes. I love making that child watch chick flicks. Then Carla called me and I called Will.. so I went to bed at like 2. All in all, not a bad day.

Saturday I woke up somewhat early to go to Soccerworld with my brother. He bought me a new glove for field hockey cause I really wanted one exactly like my old one and I found it!! It was so exciting for me. So I got that then I went home and Derrick called me and I went over to his place to watch the new Family Guy movie. It was soooo funny. Then I went and picked up Carla at work, hung out with her, went home, saw my uncle, Derrick came over and we went to Robins house. We watched the Secret Window.. Derrick had to explain the whole thing to me cause I'm retarded and ADD and I cant focus on anything. We drank half the bottle of wine and some of the Breezers and it was sooo good. And Robins Dad whipped out a bottle of champagne to say happy birthday to me. It was sweeet. I dunno if it was the alcohol or what, but I decided it would be a good idea to walk Derrick home. So I did. I dont know what the dealio with us is.. I'm so confused. I must straighten it out ASAP because I am going to go crazy. I dont like all these mind games and mixed signals he's sending me. Hopefully I can figure everything out soon. Anywho I'm off to Duncan all day so until next time...